KathrynPattison

It has been over a week now. I've not risen above the lowest line of happiness once during that time. I have always been either a little low or properly sad. Sometimes over nothing, other times I just wake up like that and the days events aid in lowering my mood further.

This all began after a really good day. I had gotten two great videos recorded and edited and I was feeling really positive about uni, work and things in general. But then I just read something on this site and it just snapped. The good mood died. I don't know how or why. What I read wouldn't upset even the most emotional person yet I still feel like this.

Though initially I wasn't worried as this has happened before but I trusted myself to feel better eventually as per my own words in a happier journal entry, 

'Just ignore past me as she's a miserable sod'

But the problem with that statement as I knew then and definitely know now, 'current' me at the time of that post or at least when I am actually happy, forgets. She forgets what it's like to be here in this position. Whilst I'm happy I forget what this kind of sadness is like. I think I'm so silly when there is plenty of things to bring me back up like books, manga, films, YouTube, my writing e.c.t.

The funny thing is I don't even believe I have real depression. Even right now in some regard. Despite me feeling incredibly low at some points during this week I couldn't even match how I was back in 2016 which was when I was actually taking pills and seeking a form of therapy for it. The feelings I went through then and the month of May, known forever to be my worst month of my life, cast such a shadow that these days couldn't even dream of casting.

Though I suppose that's good. Not having depression is a real asset. Yet I still feel this way. Don't get me wrong I know that this will sound suspiciously like the disease but I still get out of bed. I still find the time to write and make videos. I still do those things. My mother told me depression is feeling so bad you don't want to get out of bed in the morning at all. "Believe me" she said, and I did and still do. She is a nurse after all.

I don't believe I have it. Sometimes I exhibit the qualities on occasions. I stayed in bed nearly all day in December but I still did some Christmas shopping and watched one of Mark's livestreams. I didn't do nothing. I still did something. Even now I'm bothering to fully punctuate this sob piece. You'll know things are truly bad when I start not capitalising any I's or words after full stops. 

Yet now here I am. It's 11.29 as I type this and I don't want to sleep even though I have a 9 a.m start tomorrow. Though I still don't want to do anything else. Before writing this I was watching an old Doctor Who episode that I really enjoyed. But then halfway through my mind wandered to all that had happened and I started to put it into words that I could write and thus were are here.

Last weekend I was extremely nervous over filming a project with my group. I was late to join as the previous groups I was going to help in didn't get their projects picked. The kickstarter was fully funded even beyond our target and the producer is excellent at organising. We made the trailer a few weeks ago and it went well but when the editor looked over the footage she said the audio was really quiet. It wasn't the end of the world as it can just be turned up in the edit but it had already sparked my initial fears even more.

You see in this film course of mine, people don't like to be the sound guy. Your job is just as important as all the others but if you fuck it up then the film is usually un-salvageable. It's a lot harder to fix crackling audio than a badly lit shot. You can easily edit away a flubbed line than magic out dialogue from where none exists. So that's why I was nervous before hand. It's not like first year where we were all having fun making movies. There's expensive and sophisticated equipment involved now. Learn the ropes or be left behind and screw up your whole teams project and lower everyone else's grade. 

I had somewhat used the equipment before so I wasn't fully panicking on that front but it was still fuzzy in some places. It was different to the one I had used on the trailer as it was the producer's own. But the editor told me about the quiet audio and I felt terrible as I had assumed I was doing a good job as it sounded fine to me. Then the first day of shooting came around and I already wasn't feeling great. I was behind on videos and the ones I had recorded weren't my best.

I've been less inclined to bother recording or editing what I've made more and more. Even today I've left two whole videos completely unedited which will only leave more work for me tomorrow with maybe four videos to edit which will only put me further behind schedule as I know I won't have time to render them all in one day as that takes hours. Still it can't be helped. I understand more now where Felix comes from when he doesn't play games unless he knows he'll like them. I don't ever hate a game but some just don't illicit a fun response worthy of a video.

But anyway. That's all my own dumb fault as I'm the only one who expects a minimum three days pre-prepared videos just for occasions such as this. Still, it's slowing down all the more these days. I don't gain but I don't lose all that much either. The comments are still lovely but infrequent. I have so much compared to before. A lot of people would be overjoyed with nearly 300 subs. Not to say that I am not. But when only 10% bother to watch your videos and the ones you spend a long time editing get so little in the first place, it can be hard to completely care. Most of them are deleted accounts now and some that haven't been are suspiciously similar to one another. I honestly don't know anymore. I can't hate it but I'm not sure I love it all that much either. 

Isn't that the delightful thing about depression? It's not just feeling sad as most people think. It's that and trying to cheer yourself up but KNOWING that it won't work and will make you feel even worse because of it. Therefor you avoid doing anything that will make you happy just in case it poisons the activity for you. I've gotten close to losing interest in watching films at home because of trying to use them to make me feel better. So I go to the cinema instead where I know my attention will assuredly be distracted.

On the first angry day that would precursor this solemn week I went to see Coco. I loved it. It was truly a masterful piece of animation. Though I spotted the twist a little too early. I haven't done that in a while. I remember doing it a lot while watching Doctor Who for the first time. It was just easy to see where it was going and I didn't mind it too much back then as I felt really good for being able to spot it. Like I was smart. But now it's just a nuisance. It's like studying films has heightened this ability too much. Though I was warned that this would happen so I shouldn't be surprised.

Though that's another point. On that first day of shooting we had a class in the morning. The tutor went over the basic ideas of framing and camera movement and sound. Unfortunately, whilst the tutor discussed how to get good sound, the editor kept side-glancing me as though to say 'see? It isn't that hard!' But I managed to ignore it as I didn't believe that it was right of me to assume that was what she was doing. Though we moved onto directing next. The tutor split the class in two and had everybody have a go at acting, camera and directing. I was happy to watch the boys at first but then the tutor wanted us females to get involved. So I stood up proudly and got to it. I told the actor what I wanted him to do as was what I thought was the point. But the tutor interrupted and said I should focus on the camera work rather than the acting.

In my theatrical haste I suppose I had neglected that for a minute but I just wanted a set plan to move the camera around later. But in the end I got some useful tips though a terrible feeling lingered.

Doubt.

I forgot about it for a small time as we had to watch some clips from Moonlight and Moonrise Kingdom, the latter being a favourite of mine. But then we had to move onto the part of the day I dreaded. We had to meet up with the tutor and some filmmaking guests she had brought in but we did have to leave early for the train which was already stressing me out a little. One was a sound recorder and designer and the other was a cinematographer. I had proper business with the former. But my dour mood and nerves over the project had already made me feel so bloody terrible. As the guy was talking I could feel the editor's eyes flash towards me whenever he gave a basic tip about recording sound which I already knew from previous experience. I wanted to burst out crying on a couple of occasions as I just felt that fucking bad just over everything in general. But I held myself together as I knew that day wasn't remotely done yet.

After that we went to talk to the camera man who gave our camera person some great advice. I sort of just nodded occasionally as my thoughts became too big to push away. Then we grabbed our equipment for the shoot. We went to Glasgow and filmed along the river. Being the sensible duckling I was I decided to wear my nice long coat that had no sleeves. I didn't realise how cold it would get until we were out there.

Before then we were on the train for 50 minutes. The director and the camera man talked to each other for most of it while I just stared out of the window trying to make myself feel better but it was proving impossible. A part of me was just so desperate to go home and record a video or just lie in bed. Just anything else other than go filming. I was beginning to think I wasn't right to make movies. What if I was better a theatre and I just didn't know it? I was more focused on the acting earlier in the day...maybe it's a sign. Or was it just my misunderstanding of the exercise? I haven't really written anything since first year that has progressed anywhere. Other people have their own businesses and have won awards. They have their films in festivals and are making connections. But I haven't done any of that. No, I waste my time on these fucking stories and stupid YouTube videos which barely get above 10 views!

Even if I did make it. Even IF I did, what would I truly be? I cannot write real scripts or stories. I steal the ideas of others and craft my own lunacy around them. People complement me all the time. I don't bloody deserve it. I did not create Dark nor Wilford or Anti. None of them. I make myself feel better by pretending to write real stories. I have a real character that I could call my own. I see her everyday but I still don't commit myself to getting anything down about her. Nope! It's all Dark or nothing apparently!!

Oh I've started crying. That'll make the screen hard to see. Strange how the fanfiction topic is the one that did it..

I will just be one of those divisive filmmakers. Style over substance and nothing more. Those directors that need a die hard audience to keep their career alive and be defended in the numerous comment sections of those who rightfully call out their lazy filmmaking. Statistically only two of us out of 30 or so will properly make it. Who knows if making it means indie darling for a few years then anonymity or the next Spielberg. Seems a little late to change to theatre doesn't it?

But yet I don't know if that would work either. I like theatre but I like films slightly more. Are both of these just fairy-tale adorations only meant to be hobbies and nothing more? I keep thinking I'm not worthy of this course. But even then it's so shoddily managed that even at this point more people are desperate to leave but they can't due to a lack of having a job in the industry. I still await my results from early December. We all do.

But the camera man noticed I was being quiet and asked of my welfare. I said I was okay. Not a complete lie but still. After getting dinner and meeting up with the actresses we walked to the location. It started to rain. Nothing major league thankfully but still a little more than spitting. But that wasn't the worst thing. It was cold. Not just a bit nippy but ice cold. Due to my idiotic dress sense my arms and fingers quickly were frozen and I began to shiver badly. As the sound person that's not too great but the horrendous wind blasting my eardrums drowned out most of the sound I had recorded anyway. I had worn leggings under my jeans and the coat kept my torso warm. I assumed that those were all I needed to keep warm as my regular coat would weight my arms down which would do no good when holding a boom pole.

The most sound fucking logic you've ever heard right?  

So after the two hours I was feeling so sick that I couldn't breathe. I usually feel sick in that way when I'm in a stuffy place and the air isn't all that fresh but I was outside. I don't think I've felt that cold in a very long time. The wind and the cold rain made for a deadly combination as the camera man remarked the other day that I looked like death at the time. Back then I didn't really believe him but thinking back on it I do now. But we did good and headed home after the wind got too bad to continue. It died down a few times and allowed some half decent recordings at least. I immediately began to feel better after we started walking which should serve me well next time I'm in the cold as I should keep moving rather than facing my back to the wind and curling up. On the train home I could barely keep my fingers still to choose a song to listen to. Luckily the good ol' Game Theorist's and Felix could amuse me for a bit of the journey back. I won't be complaining about my cold flat anytime soon let me tell you that.

I was glad to find out that all the recordings came through which meant I had used the equipment properly. The next day we came in at 9 to start the hospital scenes which went amazingly well despite the production designer being an hour late which meant we were slow to start. We got all the shots done and managed to finish early. Though we did get partially shouted at for filming in a supposed 'working corridor' even though there were barely that many people going by and we had permission. 

Still the day went well and I was happy. The producer did ask me if I was feeling bad over what the editor had done. I didn't lie but I certainly didn't want to cause any drama as that would be too much at such a crucial time in the production such as this. But all the complex relations in my class are getting to be just like secondary school where you would go in thinking some people were cool with each other then the next day one hates the other for X reason. It's exhausting. Still I try to be fine with it as I don't like people in my class for just as varied reasons as everyone else. Though they don't change nearly as often as the others do. 

But that's all in their classes. I'm kind of split from them as they are doing a team writing for TV class whereas I'm working in a studio class downstairs akin to what they do on SNL. I'm enjoying that class so there's that.

Uni isn't actually all that bad now. It's not great at home though. I still think about my sister too much sometimes. I know she's getting better but I just hate that she's even in hospital at all. She was doing so well and it all just suddenly changed again. My older sister has surmised that she just might be like this and there's no way to really fix the situation. I hope that's not true as I fear even more of our good past memories will be tainted and I will become estranged from her. It's a stupid fear I know, but it's a real one I've had for a number of years now. Maybe even since the first day she showed me those marks.

My diet isn't improving. I don't eat at regular times. This week I've had a form of take out food four times. Two pizzas, chips with mayo and mcdonalds. It's disgusting. I haven't gone for a run in at least a month after I said I would start doing it again. I just excuse my self with not having enough time constantly even though I didn't used to. There were times where I would go on runs everyday no matter what. Even at 2.40 a.m I remember one night. I have such plain food so often. Just pasta with cheese or rice and some lettuce. Or the somewhat not plain food like french toast has become plain when which it was not. I promised myself I would but things like meat and be bothered to make real meals not make pasta at 10 p.m as I did tonight. But I just fear wasting food. At least on this 'diet' I don't waste food all that much which means less wasted money.

I don't even worry about money that much. It really doesn't bother me if I have a lot or a little. As long as I have enough to keep renting this flat, going to the cinema and buying food, I'm content. I just worry about getting stuck. I don't want to stay at Dominos for any longer than I have to. I wanted a job at the cinema but I didn't get it as others with more relevant experience applied which I can certainly understand. If I end up in a tiny ceilinged flat with the same job in five years I'll know for sure just what misery is. I can't stand flats or houses with low ceilings. They're like rabbit hutches I remarked when I looked at flats for the first time before I found the place I'm living now. I guess it's only because I've lived in high ceilinged places my entire life.

I've noticed how noisy this place is as well. The neighbour snores. The walls are too thick for wifi but not for noise it seems. His laugh sometimes sounds maniacal and jumpscares me out of nowhere. People come in and out all the time to see the landlord and sometimes the one who helps him out the most leaves at 1 a.m. and keeps me awake. Sometimes I get so irritated by any tiny noise that I wish I was back at home in the middle of nowhere where there was barely a sound at night and the world is peaceful. It's actually gotten to the point where my childhood home doesn't feel like home anymore and it saddens me immensely. I love that old house so much. I miss walking the dogs at night and staring up at the cloudless sky and seeing all the stars imaginable. 

It's actually been two years since our dog Inka passed away. I saw her last last February when I visited with my then flatmates. I was at uni so I didn't see her decline but I was told she wasn't doing well and I could see it in her when I saw her. She was an old dog. Still I talked to her the night before I left and I still miss her even now. Sometimes I think she'll come bounding up to see me whenever I go home. Just for a split second. I remember the words I said at her grave between the crab-apple and plum tree. God I miss having a pet nearby. We've got two cats at home and even though I'm not the biggest fan of cats I still miss the feeling of Kenko sleeping at the end of my bed and her coming over to bother me into patting her. 

Though speaking of those two former flatmates. I forgot one of their birthdays. It passed by a week and a bit ago and I had no idea until yesterday. Before now per the agreement of separate lives I limited my well wishes to that of a simple Facebook message and nothing more. I doubt he even noticed that I didn't say anything but he'll be 20 now I suppose. He seems in good spirits when I saw him the other day. 

I talked of the whole incident again on Friday. I didn't feel good or bad about it. A friend explained it to another friend as apparently there was still one person in the entire collective who still had no idea about what happened. One of them called the recent birthday boy self important. I could somewhat agree that that after seeing how he walks with such a confident swagger. Though I still can't fully hate either of them. They tried their best and my constant barrage simply exhausted them. That was all. 

I did talk to the friend who explained everything about life in secondary school. She opened up to me about some pretty intense bullying and I just realised how different I had become in ten years. Before I wouldn't speak for days on end. I am now not only confident enough to speak to people but likeable enough for others to comfortably confide in. How times change eh? 

I admitted I wrote fanfiction about Darkiplier to her. I use the word admitted to its fullest meaning as I felt to strange revealing such an online thing into the real world. I had a somewhat similar feeling with revealing I made let's plays but not to this extent. She's a fan of Mark as well and knew of his more budget based forays so it's not like I had to explain anything. But still it was so gross I would say. I felt like an obsessive even though what I write isn't really all that bad. You might say I'm trying too hard comparatively which I can agree with. But I don't know. I still didn't go into too much detail for fear of just looking weird. I even mumbled 'Darkiplier' when she asked what character I wrote about as I felt that weird about it. 

What was the point of this again? Ah yes, I suppose I'm becoming suspicious of my really happy times in the future now as it has a habit of crumbling away in due time. Perhaps we can at least hope this won't drag on for much longer so I can promptly forget this kind of lowliness for a while.   

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED!!

Sounds the drums of victory, it has happened again!!

Thanks TiniestTinsel <3

Rules:
1. You have to post ALL the rules.
2. Answer 10 questions that you have been asked then create ten more questions for the others that you tagged to answer.
3. Choose 10 people.
4. Legitimately tag these 10 people. (uh oh)
5. You can't say you don't do tags. (awwwww)
6. Tag backs are ALLOWED. (gdi)

Let's get to those Q's + A's!  


1. What's the last song you heard?

That would B.Y.O.B by System Of A Down. Since Jack did his cover of Chop Suey! I though I would check out more of their work and I just got this huge blast from the past as I remember hearing my older sister listening to a bunch of their songs when she was a teenager and I've found that I really like their songs like the aforementioned, Ariels and Toxicity. Though I do need to get through more of their stuff

   

2. If you'd get to be a character in a videogame, which game/character would you pick? ^^

Oh god, there's so many!! I guess maybe Mario or Link as they get have these cool adventures and actually kind of have superpowers as well! Either that or maybe someone from Homeworld so I could be on that gorgeous mothership and gaze out at all the pretty stars :3

3. Did you ever go out in public wearing a costume? And if you did, what/who were you dressed up as?

I reeeeallly wanted to dress up as a survey corpse member from Attack On Titan for the opening of a new manga shop in Glasgow last year and I even got all the straps and the cape et all. But I managed to lose one of the clips which managed to be integral to keeping the belts and straps together so I had to resort to just wearing the little green cape that went with it (that and the costume took forever to put on!) Though I did end up  regretting it as since it's Scotland it began to rain and I only wore a dress and leggings with the cape on that day which made things incredibly cold! Though people did come out with these giant leaf umbrellas which was pretty neat!

4. What's your favourite band? 

I guess I don't really have one. I sort of just like a tonne of different music. If I looked through my Itunes it's all either composers or solo artists so I'll just go with one of those. I think I'll stick with Lana Del Rey as I have nearly all her albums and her music is just so emotional and I love it

5. What is your opinion on the most holy and amazing of all organisms, Zea mays? :3

*Googles zea mays due to being an uneducated pleb* 
Ooooooohhhhh! Yeah that truly is the most godly of all organisms! I can't live without my popcorn! (Even though I haven't had it in ages but hey!) 

6. Could you please tell us a scary/funny story? You can choose whichever you prefer!

Hmmm. Not sure about scary but I do remember my sister telling me about when she had a sleepover at a friends house. She and the others slept outside in a tent in the girls garden and their garden is adjacent to an old church. She said that while they were all messing around late at night they saw a light on in the church and this must have been around midnight so they were pretty freaked out. I think they actually had to go back inside because they were so spooked! XD

It was probably just the minister or someone like that as they lived relatively nearby but maybe it wasn't, WHO KNOWS?!

Apparently it was kind of haunted that old church.   

7. You get the chance to meet one person, fictional or real, in real life. Who'd you pick?

Despite the moderate controversy surrounding him I would pick Tarantino. He's undoubtedly an amazing filmmaker and I guess I'd just want to talk to him bout his philosophy on movie making and get to know how he works and stuff like that.

8. Tell us your superhero name! If you happen to have one, tell us that, and if you don't have one then make one like this: The (adjective with the first letter of your name) (colour of your shirt) (object closest to you at the moment)

Well it's not official but one that I've made up for funsies is Blue Symphony where I can fly and control sound. I'd wear this huge and badass dark blue cape that would swirl and twirl around me as I flexed my powers! ;D 

9. Which clothing item you own is your favourite?

At this very moment it's probably the Letterman jacket that Mark sold for one of his charity live-streams. It's super comfy and it keep me warm and the fabric doesn't get cold even when I wake up in the morning when my room feels like the inside of an icicle!

10. What's your favourite invertebrate animal? ;D

Butterflies! Not any of the other nightmare fuel that fall under that bracket, that's for sure!

And now more of dem Q's  

1. What is the emoticon you use the most?
2. Would you rather publish a novel or make a film?
3. If you could master one part about drawing (e.g hands, outlines, noses, colouring, perspective e.c.t.) what would it be?
4. Four cool things about your country of origin.
5. Last movie you watched?
6. Headphones or earphones?
7. Last song YOU heard?
8. Your favourite deviation so far?
9. Netflix or YouTube?
10. Lastly, how was your day?

And lastly those tags!  

EmilyHeart32
NeonlightTheLighthog
Skyracer1
dragongirl2121
30FramesXSecond
CorinneAI
Caligacal
BlackDragonQueen1294
TiniestTinsel
Ecclytennysmithylove

Hibbity hibbity That's all folks!!  

Huzzah and hooray! I haven't done one of these in ages!

Thank you TiniestTinsel for tagging me once again <3

So without further ado, let's get down to business!


...to defeat---THE HUNS!!


I'm sorry..


QUESTIONS--GO!


1. Have you created any original characters, and if so, can we see them? :3

I guess I have. Not in the traditional sense looking at others making OC's on this site. But aside from the characters I've written about in my stories that I've put up here for my advanced English and uni course I have made up my own little 'dark side' like Antisepticeye. She's called Dark Blue (heh heh get it?) as a play on my own 'YouTuber' name Miss Blue. You can see her here as drawn by me-



But I think this iteration by TiniestTinsel is infinitely better-



2. What's your biggest fear?

I guess when I overthink about it, I have a lot of fears. Like being wrongly convicted and going to jail for the rest of my life, being murdered or kidnapped. But I think when I boil it down I'm really fearful of anything happening to my body. Things like going deaf or blind. But despite that I think I fear becoming paralysed in any way more than blindness as I heard of the effects of the former first hand. My favourite teacher was in a car accident in 2014 and it left him paralysed from the waist down I believe (the was a rumour it was chest down but no-one could confirm) and it was just such a shock to me. He was super friendly and was able to make my least favourite subject of philosophy and religious studies not so boring or pointless (at the time) I remember giving him a giant superman mug filled with sweets for his birthday a few months before and he was really thankful about it as I knew he liked superhero's and sweets.

But yeah that was tough as I remember hearing about it for the first time and he was in hospital for at least 6 months. I mean others were closer to him and felt it more than me. There was a girl who was super close to him who was devastated. I would probably not think about it as much as I never physically saw him but my English teacher was talking about him and I was passively listening. I heard him say how bitter and depressed he had gotten after it. At that moment I could see him in that condition and it was awful. It kind of left me a little paranoid about driving when I came to learn and subsequent trips but I try not to think about it too much.

Sorry for bringing this all down so early! Let's get back to the fun questions

3. What's your biggest accomplishment, or what are you most proud of?

I guess it's all that I've made and what I have cultivated because of that. Like the people I've met at uni because I worked hard to get there. All those late nights writing to then meet all you lot out here. The videos I've made and the audience I have over there who appreciate my silly humour! Yeah I think that's a good one to have. Aside from that a lot of the other things I've won are little art things here and there. Maybe in a year or two I'll have a better answer for this question

4. What's the last song you've heard?

I was listening to the Inglorious Bastard's soundtrack earlier and 'Cat People (Putting Out Fire)' by David Bowie was the last song I heard. It's really cool sounding!



5. What's your favourite deviation you made? (I might've asked this before, but I'm asking it anyway!)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! That's such a hard question! I'm trying to think which story scene I like the most and there's at least three I adore so much!

Gun to the head, I'd go with this one-The Host

It's just so good and loads of you guys liked it as well. Most of the others have a really good scene in it that I love and adore so much. But this one is the most intense and well rounded of all my writings. Though there's always the birthday collage for my dear Tin Tin as a very close second <3

6. Books or comics?

My immediate inclination is comics. But I've fallen out of favour in both actually. I NEED to read more books as I end up either not reading or reading manga which doesn't actually count. But if we're going for preference then comics for sure.

7. What's your favourite fairy tale?

Hmmmm. I'll actually have to look some up as I can't remember a whole bunch of them.

*Some research goes by*

Holy crap there's a lot of fairy tales. I think it's a toss up between Jack and The Beanstalk or The Three Little Pigs. The first is just so crazy sounding and quite exciting and inventive. The other is kinda scary when you first hear it as you think that the wolf is going to get them (even though he does in some iterations) but they manage to save themselves with their wits.

8. Which YouTube video would you recommend to me (and everyone else reading your journal)?

OH MY GOD I HAD FORGOTTEN UNTIL RIGHT NOW. I. HAVE. TO. FIND. IT.

This was one of the first videos me and my sister ever saw on YouTube when we were like nine and seven. It's hardly hilarious now but I remember watching it over ten times in one day and many more after that-



I know the song's super inappropriate but we were innocent and had no idea '^^

9. List three events that happened on the same day as your birthday, but in another year! (Not really a question, but cool to find out!)

18th recorded perihelion passage of Halley's Comet in 1066

A tonne of cool sports people were born on March 23rd which is pretty cool. A helpful article exists here-  inews.co.uk/essentials/sport/o…

NASA launched their first two man space flight in 1965

10. Pastels or bright colours?

Ah that's a mood question for sure. Right now I'd go for pastel colours as they're nice and calming and work great in certain pieces of art. But then I'm like nah bright colours man! They go so well in my favourite games and movies!

11. Which famous monument/location would you like to visit?

The forbidden city in China. It just looks stunning and my uncle has been there as he works in China quite a lot. It would be fascinating to see and learn about it as well

12. What's the last item you ordered/bought online?

Last thing was an Antisepticeye shirt from Jack's new merch line. I had forgotten he was selling them and I was going to pass on it as I had bought quite a few bits of tuber merch already but he tweeted about it again and I'm a sucker for that sweet limited edition tag! XD

13. What's the weirdest thing you've ever done in public?

I can't actually think. I don't believe I have done anything wildly weird. The first thing that came to mind was at a camp a few years ago where we had this big sheet of plastic that was covered in suds and water so you could slide down it. Me being the sensible sod I was, decided to do a rocking knee slide down that slope. But I quickly realised that it was covered in tiny rocks that others had picked up while walking through the grass and I was wearing khaki shorts at the time. Safe to say my knees hurt after that!



Well then that's those done!

Now onto the interrogation...  >:3

1. Name a movie you hate but everyone loves (or vice versa)
2. One food you couldn't live without
3. Strangest ornament in your house?
4. Four cool things about your country of origin
5. If you could add/change a holiday, what would you do?
6. If you had to play one game for the rest of your life what would it be?
7. Would you try an extreme sport like skydiving or wing-suit flying?
8. Your father gives you a small loan of a million dollars, what do you spend it on?
9. Would you rather say yes to everything or always lie?
10. Who would play you in the movie of your life? (Or musical if you want


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